Makeup is not for Girls Like You

“Makeup is not for girls like you,” the shelves at the CVS seem to say. At the top of each brand’s display are messages about enhancing my natural beauty through lashes long enough to cast shadows on my cheekbones and eyeshadows that embody every color of the rainbow. The ads promise beautiful lips, beautiful cheeks, beautiful skin, beautiful everything, but only to people who don’t look like me. I know this because the shelves tell me. Out of all of the brands this CVS stocks, only 4 of them carry foundation in my shade.

“This makeup is not for girls and guys and everyone between and outside that look like you. Not for the kids with that melanin skin, that chocolate covering, that ‘don’t spend too much time in the sun or you’ll only get darker’ look,” the shelves at the CVS seem to say. “Go over to the corner,” the shelves tell me, “that’s where we keep the makeup for people like you. Go use your Black Radiance or whatever.”

I personally like Black Radiance. $4.99 for a foundation that covers everything I need it to and lasts all night is normally a deal that I can’t beat. But today I want to beat it. I want to try something new, something different. I want to try the makeup I see all over the blogs. I want to try the makeup I see all over Instagram. I want to try the makeup I see all over YouTube. I want to try it all.

Maybe I’m just being greedy for asking to try all the products that everybody else gets to try. If so, I’m willing to stay greedy until the day I die. Because there are only 2 foundations in store from brands that don’t exclusively cater to deeper skin with a color range large enough to reach my 400 Caramel (brands always deem me caramel – it isn’t very original) complexion. Of these 2 foundations, only one is below $10.

I prepare to leave the store empty handed when I spot foundation number 3, which is a product I have been interested in giving a second try. It isn’t in the cosmetic aisle. In fact, it’s all the way across the store. All the deeper shades – of which I was the 2nd lightest – were in their own display next to the Doritos and the Lays.

“Makeup is not for girls like you,” the shelves at CVS tell me one last time as I pick up my foundation and head to the register.

My whole body feels hot and my eyes feel prickly. I’m embarrassed and angry. I’m embarrassed that I spent so long looking for a foundation and embarrassed that I found it in the chip aisle and that I’m now in line with my stupid Doritos makeup. And I’m angry that I’m embarrassed, that this store somehow bested me. I’m angry that I know all the shades exist online, but that I don’t get to see them in reality. I’m angry that even when they ordered the extra shades for this store, someone decided that they couldn’t just keep them in the cosmetics aisle like the foundations for everybody else. That someone, somewhere decided that maybe I was too poor, too ugly, too unintelligent, too something for this makeup.

While this narrative from the shelves at CVS is not new to me, I was surprised by where I heard it. The excuse for product lines and stocks that aren’t inclusive is always, “Well, those people just don’t buy these items.” But these CVS shelves were in a primarily black city, with primarily black employees, and serviced a primarily black customer base. By choosing to tell that narrative, the shelves at CVS only reveal their own deficiency: an inability to speak truth to the people around them.


Thanks for reading!

Until next time, have an awesome rest of your day and an amazing rest of your week!

YouTube ♥ Tumblr ♥ Instagram ♥ Twitter

13 thoughts on “Makeup is not for Girls Like You

  1. Liv, I loved this post. It’s so hard to find makeup products that are meant to be used on darker skin tones, even models in the pictures in drugstore makeup aisles are usually fair skinned. Everything is just meant for them, meanwhile everyone else has to make the best of what’s there. It really sucks. 😦


    1. Thanks! It really does suck! I think the worst part is, even though many brands and store seem to prioritize products for lighter skin, studies show that people with deeper skin traditionally spend more money on beauty products! Not only do we just have to “make the best of it,” but it literally costs more to do so!

      Liked by 1 person

  2. “I’m angry that I know all the shades exist online, but that I don’t get to see them in reality.”

    This is my gripe with CVS, and why I don’t mess with them anymore. I was sick and tired of knowing a foundation had about 12 shades past mine, but there’s only 2 brown ones. You also hit the nail on the head when you talked about who they service. I’ve always wondered how they don’t have more shades that cater to dark skin when they damn well know the demographic of the neighborhood. This is kind of why I just use this one bb cream from the beauty supply. When I do re-up on makeup, I’m looking for a black owned brand with a nice powder foundation.

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Thanks! I’m genuinely interested in how stores choose what shades they’re going to stock. I don’t know if they were just stocking what sells the best at other stores or what. I think they might be thinking that people with deeper skin don’t buy the products, because there are other products they know and like rather than that the products aren’t bought because they aren’t readily available in shades and undertones suitable for deeper skin so we just turn to what has worked for us in the past. Also, beauty supply stores almost always come in clutch with their makeup range!

      Liked by 1 person

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. Learn how your comment data is processed.